752 — I haven’t fangirl-ed for a long time!

KAT-TUN – LIPS
Live at Tokyo Dome, Queen of Pirates concert

Before knowing KAT-TUN, if i heard songs like LIPS, i will be so turned off. But now i enjoy it a great deal because KAT-TUN successfully made me this way. There’s just so much hype in it and it makes you wanna jump and party with them.

I used to wish i will one day have the opportunity to watch them live. Their concerts are seriously, so fun to watch! But this dream was dashed with the departure of Jin from KAT-TUN. It has been two years since he left for LA. How time flies. :’) Though he gave his words at the airport that he will not quit the group, he still did eventually a few months down the road.

Quite honestly, i haven’t been able to bring myself to listen or watch anything about the group since his official departure and now… i seldom even update myself about them anymore. I guess time really is a good remedy because i have finally come to terms with the fact that Jin is no longer in the group. Now when i’m watching their old videos, all i think of is how wonderful those good old KAT-TUN-as-six days were, and they will forever be history now.

Anyway, i like screaming to this song like how they do hahaha. 6 of them were being such fools during the QoP concert. The way they were splashing one another with the smoky thing is hilarious! Everyone was aiming at Nakamaru during his beatbox LOL he is just the perfect target for bullying. Afterwards he just pulled his shirt over his head and sang. Jin’s mic was spurting water at the middle of the song so he was busy siam-ing away and couldn’t sing lol! Even though i believe it was planned, it’s still funny to watch. XD

I just read that this song is the main theme for Kame’s drama “One pound gospel”. Coincidentally (not), Jin is now married to the female lead of that drama lololol. I don’t have any comments, just very happy for him.

Two years on, this is where he is, pursuing his America dream with all his might.

But looks like it’s gonna be a rough ride because of his sudden marriage!
He’ll always live true to the name of Bakanishi. A fool like nobody’s business.

703 — 生命是一个过程, 可悲的是它不能重来, 可喜的是它也不需要重来.

For the unexpected fills us with greater surprise and possibly, greater joy.
Fate always works in its own ways. I always believe that.
How else did this video appear before me when i was searching for something unrelated?
I know this song pretty well, but have never seen a video of it before..
So yah got a pretty good shock when A’s face appeared after K.

It’s that voice i miss. And those smiles.
It’s been almost a year! I knew life would continue.

Was watching a show just now and that sentence in the title was mentioned. True. no?
There’s at least two sides to every entity. Which is it is for ourselves to decide.
生命是不需要重来的, 因为所发生的每一切, 不管是好是坏是悲是喜, 都是人生的经验.
We make all sorts of mistakes as we grow.
Some times we look back, regret, and wish everything would start over again.
But there’s no correction tape in life. You can’t retreat back to doctor your past.
Even if the future depresses us and we wanna relive our past, we can’t go back anymore.
What’s passed has passed.
We need to learn to put it back, but carry with us the many good lessons it teaches us into the future.
We just have to keep walking, no matter the path, no matter the pace.
Then this unidirectional route will be a very fulfilling journey.

またいつか会えるよね. See you again!

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BTW, i dunno why i have such affinity with Aarif Lee.
I just watched another show by chance with him inside omgosh asdfghjklasdfghjkl
Damn cute XD The female lead too hahaha

702 — And it’s July already

This is one of the rare times that i’m switching on my com after light years, so yeah here to make the time worthy! Haha drinking bubble orange now. Smacking good (: Blocks is slightly OVER (lol. listening to HSJ’S OVER now..). I remember how we had a batch outing to watch SSO lunch time concert last year after blocks ended. Which is today. But it was July 2nd. Hahaha. This is the 702nd post! (: Lol.

Okay.. wanted to talk about HSJ, but.. i don’t know how to begin. It just saddens me to know that they may be a 9-member group from now on. I can’t bring myself to watch a HSJ with one member lacking, like how i can’t bring myself to watch a certain K group now. This bunch of people grew up together, trained together. They belong together. Watch any of their performances and you can see how they’re really one single unit. Even with so many members, they still manage to coordinate and cooperate. In fact their unity in performing far exceeds some of their senior groups who can’t dance in sync for nuts. You can feel their sincerity and you know they’ve put their hearts into each performance no matter how insignificant that performance may be. Like hello, shounen club? They can choose to put up a haphazard performance (like the certain K group always did) but they don’t.

Even though some members are still schooling, some are really busy with shooting/hosting programs, while certain members are totally overshadowed, they still come together and work together. Yes the word is.. together. They impress me over and over again, especially with their dance. They have freaking 10 members! It’s not easy to be in sync with so many people around. You have to be aware of positions, remember when and where to dance/run to, make sure you don’t bump into anyone, etcetc. But HSJ does it so well. I mean it’s not perfect but pretty awesome for a JE group. It’s no wonder Johnny chose the 10 of them to debut, because all of them were really top-notch juniors who deserve to be where they are. It would be a pity if the group ends up having to lose one member. All of them are precious.

Yet i’m more worried about Ryutaro’s development as a person after this incident. Hope Shintaro, his family, other members and his friends are giving him the right support, counsel and guidance. Because that’s what he truly needs now. (Honestly i find can find many many things he can possibly blame for landing him in this position now, which he shouldn’t.) One wired thought in his currently growing and maturing brain will influence his life forever.. May he have the courage and strength to stand up again. I have faith in you ryuryu, don’t lose hope. (:

Reading his translations made me realize how much he yearned to grow up. and here i am still having an image of him as a small young boy. Perhaps one day he will realize it’s not that great after all to be an adult?

Their performance of Time in SC a year ago. I’m not embarrassed to say that i’ve watched it at least 50 times since last year >.< It’s just so good! Daiki losing balance and falling on Yamada at the last part is.. lol.

How will it be the same with 9 members?

Similarly how will it be the same with 3 members in an originally 4-member group?

Is it the same with 5 when it was originally 6? It isn’t. Will never be.

698 — :’)

Concert was over last night. I thought i will come here to talk about it a bit.

It was my dream to play in an orchestra. I love the feeling of playing music together with many people, not just with stringed instruments but also the winds and brass and percussion at the back. This was my dream, to play in an orchestra at least once in my lifetime. It was fulfilled in Artitude when HCSE had a combined concert with HCCB. If my ensemble life ended then i would already be contented. But i’m glad i still jumped onto the HCSE wagon to continue this ensemble journey, a brand new one, which took me to many new avenues of music playing.

Then there came another dream. To play in OMM someday. I really wanted to keep feeling that strong communal feeling. That love and passion everyone on stage share for music. That grandeur and majesty as the music slowly unfolds. I know i am not good enough to be in such a good orchestra. I still am not. Which is why i am always thankful to the ones who have helped me on board this journey to fulfill yet another dream, who have encouraged and kept faith in me despite all the mistakes i made. I don’t know what good i did to earn such good treatment from everyone but i know i have a lot to be appreciative and grateful for.

It was a spectacular feeling as we played our encore piece. I felt the strings in my heart being tugged, especially when we hit that one particular part. I don’t know how to describe. I only know how i felt so :’) throughout. It was disappointing to hear people saying they almost fell asleep listening to it. HOW CAN YOU FALL ASLEEP LISTENING TO AN ELGAR PIECE! Stupid mok and jqng. Oh wells. Haha.

After this concert, i think i have a much deeper admiration for Elgar. I like people who don’t give up, who strive hard in adversities. That is why i look up to Beethoven a great deal. Not because he’s a composer widely known even by people who are not into music, not because his pieces are nice sounding, but because of his perseverance, his love for music and the strong beliefs he held close to his heart, regardless of how others viewed him. I have read the words said by Beethoven himself. (There is a book on Beethoven’s quotations.) They reflect a man who appreciated his surroundings, who loved nature, who was strong to walk the rocky roads till the end. Reading his words gives me a lot of comfort and consolation. He teaches me how to live, to never say die even though the thought of death does crosses mind once in a while, to continue loving what you love, to lead life the way you want it not how others want it and that it is okay not to conform to the norm. Just be yourself. Somewhere out there, there are those who believe the same as you, it is just that you are not aware of it. One day when affinity permits, you will meet them and understand that you are not alone. Beethoven is simply the true hero in my heart. It’s even more comforting to learn that Elgar looked up to him too (: So now these two people have become my greatest idols. Hehe.

Elgar’s Nimrod from Enigma Variations. Yep, every time i listen to it, all i feel is :’)

“Continue to translate yourself to the heaven of art; there is no more undisturbed, unmixed, purer happiness than may thus be attained.” – Ludwig van Beethoven

Thank you OMM (: I will keep working hard not to disappoint all of you good people inside.

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RIP for the 6th year too ahgong.

696 — Echoes of the rainbow

Softly sighs the rainbow
Misty songs of old
Flowing by the skyline
My secret lullaby

Softly sighs the rainbow
Stories seldom told
Flowing by the skyline
My love songs never rhyme

I stand alone below
Lingering by my secret rainbow
Ah my secret rainbow

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有些事, 一辈子都会记得.
一步难, 一步佳. 难一步, 佳一步.
做人, 总要信.

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It’s been some time since i caught a movie that can waver my stoney heart so much. Still feeling the pangs after a good night sleep.

Compared to the stupid jap movie i watched 2 days before this (which happens to be delivering across similar message), from the plot to the cast to the sequencing and building up of events to the depiction of the growth of characters to the rounding up of the story, this one is so so so much more well thought out.

That brotherly love and kinship ;_;
Doesn’t help that both of them are so adorable ;_;

(Edit: Btw the song above is composed by that elder brother (Aarif Lee). Because of all the events that cumulated, when the song started playing in the movie, i just… T__T. At the scene when the younger brother started singing his brother’s favourite song, i also T___T..)

Ahh ):